such a waste, of a young heart. {truckthewolf}

[Emma Rose Anderson]

emma rose anderson`

turning down one more alley, the darkness had gotten to the point where looking down at your hands required straining your eyes. i relied mostly on habit and instinct once i reached this part of the 'journey' to one of the several - clubs? no. that wasn't the word for it. more like, a hang - out where kids spent all night with alcohol, drugs, and some shitty band banging on their instruments until they were too intoxicated to go on. there wasn't as much dancing, more talking. i would personally, never go to a club. i was a terrible dancer.
here was much more my 'scene'. i could sit down somewhere, get a buzz going and smoke through a whole pack of cigarettes inside without anyone complaining. that was one thing my dad did voice his hatred about. me smoking, inside the house. smoking in general he said nothing, but if i lit one cigarette in the house, he snapped. so whenever it got way too cold to go outside anymore, i found myself holing up in one of these places pratically every night.
shuffling a few more steps, i reached out and let my left hand run along the brick building for a few more feet. i was looking for a door that had a permanently etched in letter 'm'. don't ask my why that letter is on the door, i dont even know myself. it didn't take but a few more feet until my fingers felt the familiar groove of the wood having been carved out and i slid my hand down to find the doorknob. by now, you could hear the music blasting from behind the door and surprisingly, the door was never locked. i guess that explains why the location is so hidden. besides, if they did lock the door - no one would hear you to let you in.
i quickly jerked the rusty knob to the left and pushed the door open, bright light flooding into my vision which left me momentarily impaired, those fuzzies filling my vision. the smell of alcohol and cigarettes filled the air, with a tang of sweat from other people loitering everywhere. the band was still going strong, it seemed, from a make-shift set up in the corner of the den. i hurridly shut the door behind me, meeting only a few eyes of the people who bothered to see who it was. everyone else was too far gone to be on any type of safe guard.

[Katianna Belle Vaughn]

"Ahvegyil, put that down." Kati sneered across the long bar at her sister, who was slowly slipping downhill on a 1-10 drunk scale.
"Calm down, hoe. We only need one sober one." She yapped, using the term 'hoe' as if it were just a nickname. It was thrown around lightly between the two and friends, as if it weren't actually an insult... She then turned around again, chugging the last of what was in the tall glass. Avvy had already downed a good portion of it before Kati had even noticed her picking up another glass-full, and she intented to keep it that way: keeping her off her back untill all her light problems were washed from her mind; that's exactly what it did for her, for them both.
Dont get me wrong, neither were alcholics, but it came to this every-so-often; thank god Kati was the responcible one, or they'd both end up in a random alley off the main road-side.
Katianna gave an snarl towards her sister, giving up with her for now. Hopefully she knew when to quit it; even in a place like this, you never knew who was waiting to take advange of a wasted 17 year old, certainly they were out there. The female gave a glance at the door as another girl walked in, one that she had recognized, but not actually... "personally" knew. But who did around here...? Everything was a one night stand in this place.
Ella..? Emma...? Emma, yes. She started to mentally think, Shes a Rizaki, right. I knew it. Kati grinned, looking up slightly. "I'm so smart, I amaze myself." She splurred.
"WHAT'DYOUDO?" Ahvegyil fell over her sister, face pressed up against her shoulder.
"Go sit down somewhere." Katianna grunted, not wanting to deal with her drunkeness right now; maybe she'd listen this time.
"Hooo-Kayy..." Avvy grinned up at her sister, giving her a wet kiss on her neck before staggering slowly to a seat.
Kati grumbled something under her breath, whiping the slobber off her pale neck.

[Emma Rose Anderson]

after weaving my way through the unsteady groups of people, i finally made it to the kitchen area. there had been several red plastic cups stacked around, some already filled with liquid. but if you knew one rule to survive out here, it was to never drink something unknow like that. instead, i glanced over the bottles of alcohol, looking for one that hadn't yet been opened. with a red plastic cup in one hand, and the only unopened bottle of some type of whisky, i started pouring the poison. i only filled up the cup halfway, and i knew if this stuff was too strong i'd end up not even drinking that much. i wanted a buzz, not a concussion.
i had somewhat minded my own business, being in my own little world while i had poured myself a drink and pulled out my cigarettes. it wasn't until i had perched myself ontop of the kitchen counter where there was some empty space that i came back into reality. as i set my drink down close beside me, i began liting the cigarette and looked up after inhaling my first drag. my eyes had now fully adjusted to the light and i could make out somewhat familiar faces surrounding me.
i noticed two girls who were practically identical and then i remembered the twin rizaki's who were in my grade. what was their name, i tried to remember, my eyes still glancing from one to the other. it's not like they would notice - well, at least not one - who was practically wasted already. besides, what would they do if i was staring? i was the least creepy in this room. maybe it was katie...and the other girl was like avy, or something. i finally gave up and took another drag from the cigarette, leaning back against the wall.

[Katianna Belle Vaughn]

kati blinked her eyes a few times, tracing the girl through the people as she made her way steadily towards the kitchen. her gray eyes wandered back and forth between the two - emma and her sister- before settling on her sister as some guy walked up her on the chair and they started to talk. she seemed fine at first, but nothing could be assumed given the situation of her mental state. kati narrowed in closer, still watching intently as he got more comfortable around av. she didn't want to take any chances, and stood up from her seat, walking over to her sister and the boy. the boy looked up immediately, and of course, had to do a double take... make that multiple-take. "no, you're really drunk off your ass. there's only one of us and i'm not really here." kati said with a small smile before grabbing her sisters hand and pulling her from the seat.
"aww... i was having fun. you ruin it all." she moaned, swaying after her sister.
"not as much as he was thinking about having." she said, guiding her to the seat next to her own. kati wasn't ready to leave and she was going to stay here, whether she had to play babysitter or not. kati sat down on the opposite side of her old seat, and looked at her old cup that was half empty. no, that totally wasn't worth it... the girl pulled out another cup from the stack and gave a quick glance inside it before searching for a new bottle of alcohol. her eyes traveled to a freshly opened bottle of whiskey that she had watched emma open, eyeing it before slowly walking over.
"emma, right...? would you mind?" she asked, motioning gently to the bottle besides her.

[Emma Rose Anderson]

i looked up at the girl, cigarette still in mouth. she had motioned towards the bottle of whisky i had somehow ended up guarding. i guess incase half wasn't strong enough. i started nodding, but turned my head away from her to blow out smoke. it was rude - even to my standards - to blow cigarette smoke in someone's face. even if we were in a shithole like this.
i manueved the cigarette away from my face, grasping most of my hand around the edge of the counter, while it still held the cancer stick. "not, not at all," i spoke simply, grabbing the bottle with my other hand and holding it out towards the girl. this one was kati, i hoped. i had never been around the two twins long enough to start picking out differences to tell them apart. although i remember someone saying they were polar opposites, and kati was the responsible one at a party.
"cant really trust the other bottles," i added on smoothly, waiting on her to take the whisky out of my hand. i had been wrong about half a cup being too strong, i wouldn't need the rest anymore. after she had freed me from holding the glass bottle, i took another drag from my cigarette, turning my head to the side to blow out the smoke.
i manuevered back into the same position i was before, and fixed my eyes on kati as she poured the liquid into her own red plastic cup. i didn't want it getting awkwardly quiet or something once she finished pouring, so i started up a conversation now. "and you're kati, right?" i asked, glancing from the other sister to her.

[Katianna Belle Vaughn]

kati relaxed slightly as she nodded, knowing her memory had done good this once at remembering names. she wasn't always great at it, but she seemed to remember the most important ones. she took the bottle and slowly began to pour, filling it to about the half way point before laying the cap back on and screwing it on tightly. "i know, and i wouldn't take any chances, either." she said, looking up at emma as she spoke the small amount of words. her gaze drifted back over to the boy who was with av before shortly after speaking, but put him out of mind when she saw him over with yet another girl; what a shocker.
katianna looked back up to emma as she heard her name being spoken. "yeah, katianna; or kati. and my sister av issss..." she trailed off, looking past a few other people who sat on the counter to spot her sister, "drunk off her ass." she mumbled finally, looking back at emma then hopping onto the counter. she took a quick swig from the cup before lowering it to her lap, wrapping both hands around it.

[Emma Rose Anderson]

i let my gaze travel back over to the other twin, av, who was with out a doubt - drunk off her ass. but i had seen her in the same condition when i'd first walked in. now that i was looking at her again, i let myself smile a little in amusement. i remember being that wasted before - fun for a moment, never a good ending. i had been stupid for months, until i finally realized i was going to get into some deeper shit if i kept it up.
"so it would seem," i said softly. after watching av make a fool of herself for a few moments, my gaze turned back to kati as she hopped up beside me on the counter. i was't going to say anything, because surprisingly she had been good company so far. i didn't mind making it known if i had a problem with people or not.
i brought my cigarette back up towards my mouth for one last hit before it completely burnt out. this time, i simply blowed the smoke out in front of me since she had moved out of the way. if she really minded the habit, she wouldn't of sat beside me. still - i would never blow directly in someone's face. i reached over to the side kati hadn't sat on and plucked up a small black ashtray that someone had been smart enough to put out.
you couldn't even imagine how many parties i had been too, and no one had bothered with that. cigarettes would end up literally all over the floor by the end of the night. with the accompanied stains of what was left. people's carpets were totally ruined after that. i normally would at least try to find a glass table where it wouldn't burn a hole.
i leaned back, the ashtray i had now pulled beside me. i ground the leftover bud to completely put out the burning before i simply let it drop. the first one of the night - and definitely not the last. "so how does it feel to be the babysitter?" i asked, glancing at her for a moment with a half grin, simply to make conversation with kati. i let myself relax and lean back against the wall, grabbing my cup from beside me as i did so. i took another sip of the alcohol, the familiar burn in my throat ignited.

[Katianna Belle Vaughn]

kati stared into her cup for a moment, swirling the liquid around untill it became lighter in the middle, the momentum keeping it going for a few more seconds after she stopped. "oh... well," she smiled slightly and shook her head, "we take turns. i guess; its better one of us be the sober one. even though most of the time it ends up being me..." kati thought for a moment, then looked up. "why dont you ever come with someone? i mean like... you know... i'm sorry. i'm not good with conversating." she fell back against the wall, hair cascading around her shoulders.
wow i'm boring as hell. she thought, twitching slightly. whymustyoubesoawkward.